I feel like I need to fess up about yesterday’s blog post on Restoration. We really need to be transparent in our weakness so that we can help and encourage each other along. I’ve been struggling for weeks as I’ve been writing this series. From my physical to emotional state, I’ve been up and down with all kinds of distractions. I’d give some pause, then remind myself of the obstacles of life that are keeping me from my purpose – so I push onward. In writing yesterday’s post though I felt it was the heaviest and most complacent of any of the distracted days. But, I pushed forward wrote the story and closed my computer bent on melting into the couch. Instead I had a conversation with my son that turned me upside down and sideways.
Now, I can’t share that conversation with you or the topic but I wanted to share this to bear witness to what I had written. I NEEDED THE REMINDER OF ISAIAH! I wasted hours yesterday wallowing in my disbelief of this conversation with my son. I allowed the old PA system to kick back on and tell me what the outcome would likely be based on my human understanding. I ignored the words I had already been given that my restoration was already underway even when I couldn’t see it. My dry and thirsty lands were being fed with a life-giving spring. My children would be blessed. My moments of restoration are still in progress and I can’t even FATHOM what the end result will be. So, how dare I write to you that my own situation will remain as it is without change. Yes, I accept where I am at. Yes, there are things I can’t change. But, how arrogant of me to say so boldly that I know the final outcome.
It is in His hands not mine. So final word on that - stay strong and keep your eyes on the Truth.
Guys, I know this is a difficult journey at times. Our learning who we are and looking at the painful places. Letting go and choosing to find something better for you. It is scary. It is unknown. It is flat out hard!
The Cold Hard Truth
Man am I my own worst enemy! Again, thank you to my friend Tony who put it so well to me today! Reminding me that in Truth nothing can defeat me. I was busy defeating myself. Letting the old lies surface.
I am preventing my restoration because of my own disbelief. Like peeling back the layers on an onion, I ran into another layer that still believes that it is impossible to really have good in my life.
Because of my own puny human understanding and logic, I am continuing to tell myself about the improbabilities of achieving my dreams. Are you doing this to yourself too?
The improbable and the impossible are truly God’s domain and nothing is impossible for Him. So why am I even trying to figure this thing out?!
Let’s do this together today. Take a look at your ridiculous yet logical reasons or disbelief, and start telling them where they can go. Disagree with them outright and trust in Truth.
WOO! Let’s go kick butt with our dreams, yeah!?!